Friday, 8 January 2010

don't read this if you hate whingers

I'm just going to say this once because once is enough to get it out of my system so please bear with me for a moment.

At the moment I'm losing the struggle with depression and anxiety, I've re-started my medication but they they time to kick in. The truth is I feel like giving in but I am just going to wait, wait for something good to start happening or wait for the end. Just waiting.

(I don't usually tell people when I'm feeling this bad)

I know that I am at a stage where every thought and deed is self destructive and that I have\will destroy the good things in my life so I really need to shut up and let it pass but then I also feel that I need to constantly provide assurances that I do value the good things and that gets counter-productive so.....

Part of me knows that this will pass and I just wonder if there will be anything left when I emerge.


Angela said...

Hang in there, my friend. I know nothing I can say will make much difference right now, but I'm here. *hugs*

Toadee said...

thank you so much Angela

KB said...

I've read your last couple of posts hun and here are my two cents worth.

I have been in the same boat as you (as you well know). Just keep saying to yourself you need to get through the next couple of weeks and you will start to feel more able to cope.

I know it's hard to think outside of whats going on in your head but think of your freinds and family and how much they love you. You need to be strong for those kids of yours.

You know you can mail me anytime. If you want to give me your number, we have a special phone deal at mo and I could give you a call if you need someone to talk to.

Steve says hi and he will stop by and comment next time he has a day off.

Take care of you.

Toadee said...

thank you so much Karen, your support always means a lot to me and I know how well you understand.
I will probably mail you when I get my head a bit sorted and as to the phone call well that would be wonderful although it would have to be by prior arrangement because it might not be a popular thing around here lol

talk soon